I sit in front of my monitorAnd stareAnd stareAnd stareI poise with a pen to write in my notebookAnd stareAnd stareAnd stareI stand in front of an audienceAnd stareAnd stareAnd stareI sit on the busAnd stare out the windowI lie in my bedAnd stare at the ceilingI sleep and dreamAnd stare at nothingCouldn’t find any differenceBetween a dream and realityStaring at nothingThinking, unthinking
Like a calm ocean
On a sunny day
Like the vast seas
And some days
And dark sky
While birds hide
As lightning strikes
In her eyes
I wonder what he’s doing right now. I wonder if he’s happy. I wonder if he thinks of me even if not as much as I think of him. I wonder if he’s getting what he needs. I wonder if he ever gets lonely. And I wonder what he does if he gets lonely.
I wonder if he has somebody special. Someone he often talks with. Someone he often thinks of. Someone who inspires him. Someone who makes him smile everyday. Someone who gives meaning to his music. Someone who makes his heart ache. Someone he misses and desires. Someone he yearns for. Someone he longs for.
I wonder if we’re meant to be together. I wonder if he’s the one for me and I’m the one for him. I wonder if God will ever give us a chance. I wonder if love will grow between us. I wonder if God has any plan to bring us together. And if He does, I wonder if the right time will come soon. I wonder if I will love him forever. I wonder if he will love me forever.