I sit in front of my monitorAnd stareAnd stareAnd stareI poise with a pen to write in my notebookAnd stareAnd stareAnd stareI stand in front of an audienceAnd stareAnd stareAnd stareI sit on the busAnd stare out the windowI lie in my bedAnd stare at the ceilingI sleep and dreamAnd stare at nothingCouldn’t find any differenceBetween a dream and realityStaring at nothingThinking, unthinking
My chest feels being crushed
Like wringing out a wet towel
My heart being fueled
So hot it burns, it hurts
Because I miss you
My head is spinning
Like a thread weaving
Of fancy imaginings
To fill the void
Because I miss you
My voice cracks
While my eyes water
As I feel my heart breaking
Gently and quietly
Because I miss you.
Funny how you say “hello” when you really mean “goodbye”
Say “I’m sorry” when you really mean “It’s over and we’re done”
Say “I’m okay” when nothing in your life is fine
And fake a smile while you say those lines
Funny how you stay while everyone is leaving
You fight while everyone is giving up
You dream while everyone surrenders to routine
And feel so alone in your journey
Funny how they start seeking when you’re gone
They start pulling when you rise
They start asking when you’re quiet
And stay away when you breakdown
Funny how many find it so easy to lie
So easy to put on a mask and pretend
So easy to put on an act and deceive
And there you are suffering with the lies
Funny how truths are taken for granted
Rights and wrongs mixed up, vague and blurred
Real and fakes are barely recognizable
And all that matters are what others said
Funny how humans are mistaken for things
Materials are given more value
Money is given the front seat
And the ones who are breathing in the back seat
Funny how as time passes the more life loses its meaning
Life loses its purpose
Life, as what it should be, is lost
And before you know it, time’s up and you’re dying.
In the distance was a spark
A dot in the dark
Tiny yet too stark
In the distance was a lark
In the pit a war was waged
Numbed by quiet rage
Screams and tears engage
In the pit a war was caged
In nothingness I lay down
Chased away by dawn
Crumpled and undone
In nothingness I am found
Why am I here?
What am I doing here?
Who am I?
What am I?
How long can I hate?
How far can I wander off?
How changed do I have to be to stop caring?
How much guilt can I take?
How deep can I hurt myself?
How ugly can I get?
Is there a point in all of these?
What is happening?
Why is this happening?
When will this end?
Can anyone answer me?
Bravely and truly With such flair- Lines and poesy, I dare say that he, The sun to my moon; The song to my tune. My heart's grief and sigh; My soul's fire and lullaby. The drop in the deep oceans Rippling far and wide to shores, Crashing upon rocks Upon sand beaches and ice, Waves and foams- Like fire licking the cold air Freezing and burning my nights.