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Dear Me

Dear Me,

You are enough. You are worth it. You are beautiful as you are. You are you. There’s nothing wrong with being you. You are good enough. God made you beautiful. Don’t be anxious. Don’t be afraid. Don’t lose hope. Don’t give up. You are your own person. Don’t lose faith in yourself and your God. Okay, you may lose faith in yourself sometimes but never ever give up believing in God. He never left you. He never forsook you. He’s always there. Watching you. Guiding you. Guarding you. Many things didn’t turn out the way you wanted them simply because you are meant for better things. Never lose hope. Hang in there. Your journey hasn’t ended yet. You still have a long way to go. Keep going. One step at a time. Isn’t it exciting? The road you’re walking on isn’t boring. So celebrate every step, every mile. Celebrate life. Celebrate… YOU.



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How does it feel like when the one you’ve been missing ignores you? How does it hurt when the one you wanna talk to doesn’t respond? How much pain does it make you feel?

You know better than hang on to that one person who takes you for granted. You’re smart. You know what to do. And I see you’re trying. And you’re failing. Can you try harder?

Oh, come on! You deserve much more than this. Those are just emotions. You are not gonna make yourself be eaten by your emotions, are you? No, I won’t let you! Don’t make this any harder. Let it go. Let him go. Do this for yourself. You don’t wanna start the new year with a broken heart, do you? So, let go.


I beg you.

Let go.

Let. Him. Go.

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To Resist, To Give In, To Let Go

To Resist…

Not a day goes by that I haven’t struggled, trying to take control of the surge of emotions flooding my system. Did I just lose myself again? No, I don’t think so. I found a part of me instead which I didn’t know could possibly exist after everything I’ve been through. How could this be? How could the fire suddenly gets ignited by a simple, seemingly invisible contact? I don’t know how to deal with this fire. After a long time of lukewarm if not cold existence, I’m suddenly burning… yearning… desiring… for things I don’t feel deserving to have.

To Give In…

What do I do? Should I give in? Should I let myself get drowned in the surge? No. Definitely no. I can’t let my emotions take over again. Then what should I do? If I give in, I’m scared that I’m going to be a crumbling mess all over again. If I don’t give in, I’ll just have to keep on fighting myself. Is giving in the right way to go? 

To Let Go…

To accept. That sounds better. Am I ready to accept this? It’s freaking scary. I’m freaking scared of welcoming these bits of myself. But acceptance leads to peace… and healing. Acceptance might just be the best thing I could do. Stop denying. Stop resisting. Because the more I fight it, the more I hurt myself. If I stay true to myself and to what I’m feeling, maybe in time, I’ll master the art of letting go.