Don’t get me wrong. I’m not a loner. Neither an introvert. At least, not anymore. In fact, I have friends now. Close friends. We go out. We talk about lots of things. We do fun and crazy stuffs together. As a person with varied interests and different personas, they know and they’ve already seen several sides of me. But still, they don’t really know me.
You see, I’m the type of person who goes with the flow of things. I have various interests and hobbies right now because they introduced some of those to me and I liked them. And in time, they became part of me, too. For example, one friend of mine introduced K-Pop to me just last year. I liked it and now, I’m a K-Pop fan, too. I love anything “new” as long as it’s fun (for me) and safe ’cause I’ve always loved learning and exploring.
So, where’s the real me? Well, personally, I really don’t know. In a room full of strangers, I’m the type who’ll stay in a corner or inconspicuously walk around and observe the people around me. If someone talks to me, I’ll be friendly and respond politely but cautiously. I’m dumb when it comes to starting any sorts of friendly conversation with someone I just met. I’m just not much of a talker. I’m more of a listener. Also, it takes time for me to be comfortable with anyone unless we hit it right away when we first met. I also don’t judge things easily, too. Well, most of the time, I don’t really have any opinion on most stuffs because I always think that there’s always a reason behind everything. That makes me boring, yeah, but that’s just how I am. I also love anything beautiful. I have great appreciation for beauty. Be it people, things, place… name it. As long as it’s beautiful in my eyes, I love it.
Those are just a tiny part of who I am. But it makes me wonder, when stripped of all external factors, who will remain among my several personas? Who’s the real one? Where’s the real me?